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This holiday, i found myself a little strange. Usually, when i sat in the car, i will be asleep. But now, instead i am in daze. I will stare outside the window and think. Reflecting this year, every day, hours, minutes, and seconds on what I had done. Sometimes i realized why things are like that and found some answers to my old unanswered questions.

Then, i realized Life. With my thoughts, experiences and knowledge, life is a fragile thing. Anything could happen. Everyday, hours minutes, seconds, something major or minor could happen. It may affect my life tremendously or just a tiny weenie part. It may end with regrets or satisfaction. I advised myself to appreciate everything that happened, even though, it hurt.

In the car, gazing out of the window, i also realized that this holiday im quite impatient. I hate that attitude. I am trying to get rid of it.

Now, I understand what does it mean to not to put high hopes. I had felt it. I had put too much hope that I will have a great, awesome, exciting holiday. It turns out to be more bold and boring and less great, awesome, exciting activities. I accept it and appreciate the boring-ness. Let it be cause’ my life, my fault, my responsibility to it.

A teacher says to me:
Do u know who is it inside you? Have you ever said, "My heart says..."? And after you lied, you said to yourself," im a great liar" or “Luckily, she doesn't know". Do you know who’s that talking? That person, who said,” My heart says...” is your soul. Your soul knows you better than anyone else. Your soul knows what you want, what is right and what is wrong. But sometimes you ignore all the right things and make you fall in life.
The teacher says to me again:
My teacher told me not to feel proud. That feeling of proud, in a way, which makes you want to be higher than someone else. Don’t ever have that feeling. If there is, get rid of you. That feeling will make you fail in life.

What my teacher meant was to be humble and appreciate small things that happened.